I'm going to hate today.

One year later. I cannot believe it has been one year. And all the are gonna friggin talk about today is New Orleans. F*cking New Orleans. I am sick to death of hearing about them. THE HURRICANE HIT MISSISSIPPI!! THE EYE WENT OVER BAY ST LOUIS-The towns of Waveland, Bay St Louis, Pass Christian, Long Beach, Gulfport, Biloxi, Pascagoula, Ocean Springs-were all nearly WIPED COMPLETELY AWAY. The roughly mile or so from the beach in look as if someone just ERASED it. GONE!!!!! Not flooded, "oh boohoo my shit has mold on it now" GONE!!!!!


Ugh. All I am gonna do is cry all day. That is it. Try to watch the shows in the futile hope that they will talk about Mississippi. And cry. I will go to the library and grocery store, because I have too-I cannot glue myself to this or I may just truly lose it.

I will probably talk more about it later.

Why do I even bother?

Is anyone even f'in reading this? Not that I care really, I guess, I am so used to talking to myself by now.

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Where can I f*ckin fit in?

I am never going to find someone I can talk to. Ever.

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Sunday morning

and hoping that this new storm, Ernesto, stays well away from Mississippi. Go anywhere else BUT Mississippi. Please. It is difficult enough dealing with the one year anniversary this week-no need to bring more storms this way.

As for the football draft last night, well I didn't want part of the picking, but when the hub's first pick was some RB I'd never heard of and his second pick was Randy Moss, I left the room. He has an "ok" team I suppose, but we think that every year, and every year we get trounced. And I HATE the thought of having to pull for someone or some team I cannot stand. At least he picked a few Broncos, that makes me happy. =)

And the Nascar race? I turned it over to that a few times(while watching the Titans/Falcons) and everytime they were only ever showing Jr. AND HE WASN"T EVEN IN FIRST OR SECOND PLACE!! I AM SO F'N SICK OF SEEING JR EVERYWHERE!! He has ruined Nascar for me. And then at one point, TNT guys are doing a "through the field" and THEY SKIP Michael and pick up with the guy behind him!!! HELLOOO YOU MORONS! Grrrrr. Mikey finished 16th, pretty damn good for him this year.

I need to go read the paper.

Am I ready for some football?

No, actually. Well, I want to watch some, but today we make the trip to draft a fantasy team-and I hate fantasy football. My players always get hurt-I jinx them. So last time I played I drafter players I wanted to do poorly that year-reverse psychology. Didn't help. So I will try to stretch out the trip over, maybe to stop at some cemeteries. We shall see.

Am I ready for some football?

No, actually. Well, I want to watch some, but today we make the trip to draft a fantasy team-and I hate fantasy football. My players always get hurt-I jinx them. So last time I played I drafter players I wanted to do poorly that year-reverse psychology. Didn't help. So I will try to stretch out the trip over, maybe to stop at some cemeteries. We shall see.

No Glenn, nooooo!

Dammit!! The stupid-ass radio station here in this market, 1510 WLAC, is moving Glenn Beck to a tape-delayed later hour soon! ARE THEY RETARDED?????? They don't seem to care if Glenn is the third-most listened to radio show in America, they want to put some local yahoo on in that time slot. DAMMIT! I would protest them if I thought it would matter, but then I would miss listening to Glenn!! And I need my Glenn fix every day. I just hope it isn't too late in the afternoon, because Rush is on at 11, then Sean at 2pm. At 5 is sports and I am afraid that is where Glenn will be put AND IT WILL SUCK because by 5pm I am fixing dinner and doing other things and not listening to the radio! ESPECIALLY since Glenn's tv show is on at 6pm here!!!!

DAMMIT WLAC YOU SUCK!!!!

Past the weekend

Tuesday morning. We are working on some rearranging of the den, and it is so cluttered in here right now. Moved wall shelves to over my desk, so now my Waltrip collection hovers over me, and I like it. We had to repaint the walls where the shelves were, however, and cannot move the new bookshelves to that space for at least another day. So there are stacks of books and boxes of stuff sitting everywhere. Frustrating to say the least.

And it is Tuesday, Warcraft maintanence morning. (whoa thunder just hit, hopefully I will stay online!) So time to work on the website. And hopefully get so into it that I cannot stop myself from doing mainly that. I have managed to get many photos from the old computer, and need to work on cropping, resizing and identifying them to make them ready for the site, as well as doing some massive makeover work on the site. I like the new look though, not so dark and depressing(except where it needs to be). (see "Life is short..." link to right)

And now my stomach rumbles. Time to eat. OH and HOORAY we are getting a Dunken Donuts here in my town in the coming months....FINALLY!!! We have no Krispy Kreme(hell I don't even know where the closest one is except maybe somewhere near downtown Nashville, dammit) so hooray for the Dunken to bring one to MY town!!

Guilty!

Yes, yes yes!! I knew it all along. I am certain that the jury got it right. Perry March is found guilty of killing his wife, Janet. The Tennessean article, just in case you haven't heard about it. It has been big news around here. They have covered it on "48 hours" on CBS. She "dissappeared" just about 2 weeks before I moved to Tennessee, so it was the first big news story I saw when I arrived here. And now it concludes. The way I figured and hoped it would. Good is all I can say. And I wish to never have to see his lawyers smug mug on tv ever again-will someone please wipe that smirk off his damn face?? Geez.

And now to "not guilty", and that is what I feel about this FREAK who is confessing to the Ramsey murder. Not a chance do I believe him. How did he know about the secret room? How did he know exactly how much money the father had gotten in a bonus and ask for that in a ransom note? Tooooo many questions. And the guy is just a freak.

And back to working on my website. Trying to make it more light colored, not so dark and depressing. Maybe it will look better that way. Who knows.

Back to school

So, it is football season and back to school-my two favorite times of the year. Means summer heat is almost gone too. I like it. Tomorrow is the kiddo's first full day in school, my first real full day of peace. I'm not sure what I will do with myself. Maybe play the game for awhile. For sure work on the website. Clean? Well, maybe. Probably save that for later in the week. :/

The Titans played last night. Can't say much, except same old play-calling in certain situations. I could SO be a defensive coordinator on any team playing against them because at least half the time I was calling their play before they ran it just from the formations. And I had really hoped since McNair left(traitor) that the offense might change also. Nope. At least not from what I saw last night. I love Jeff Fisher, but his play-calling(yeah, I am sure he calls the plays even though Chow is now designing them) is always the same. We saw hardly anything new last night. I am just hoping it was the "vanilla" play-calling the tv guys called it and that things change before real game #1. Otherwise it will be a long long season. And they play Denver next week, so I will be watching the Broncos more closely, especially when Cutler gets in the game. Can't help but pull for my beloved Broncos. =)

Well, I am hungry. I should probably go get lunch ready. I really should clean my desk off, it is a disaster area. Oh and turn on the Perry March trial-that #$%^& needs to fry. And his smirking jerk of a lawyer.

Where am I?

Yeah, playing World of Warcraft. And that's about it. So much to do, so little time. School starts for the kiddo on Monday. Need to get back to the website. Need to get AWAY from Warcraft. Can I do it? Someone help me, tell me how to STOP PLAYING????? I feel like a drug addict who knows that I should be doing something else and just cannot stop. And not to mention beginning to deal with idiots who are now starting to tell me how to play.

Oh great, just as I write this the friggin cable goes out. Lovely day, friggin rollercoaster-car dies, that's $500, but wait-hooray my website is restored!-now the cable goes out while I am trying to work on fixing the site up and type here. Up, down, up, down. CRAP!

As I was saying(and now typing on notepad and saving so I don't lose my train of thought)...I need to get back to where I was. I have lost my way. I was a good person, doing good things(at least I thought so), and now I am playing a video game all day and argueing with someone over whether or not I should be using math to make my friggin character better. (because frankly I don't give a flying FLIP if my character is better than anyone else's-I don't have this "e-peen" thingie going on that apparently MOST of the other players do. I really, really need to get away from this game. It is tearing me up. Actually I think it is the dealing with other people that is tearing me up, same way it happened at Find A Grave. Most other people just piss me off. Why is it ok to try to ruin someone else's day? Make ya feel good? Some people must have really pathetic lives if it makes them feel better to try to ruin someone else's day. And it seems to be that ALOT of people who play this game get off on just that-ruining someone else's day. I can't deal with these people anymore. Ten months is more than enough to have played and I NEED to be done with it before I have ANOTHER nervous breakdown.

joy.